Last Goodbye

She and I sit in the dim room,

Laughing and sobbing on her book-covered floor.

“When do you leave?”

Wanting no reply.

“Tomorrow morning,” she replies

With a tear racing down her soft, smooth skin.

I take her up in my arms,

Holding her as tightly as I can.

My sleeve dampens from her pouring tears

And the brush of her long, blonde hair

Plastered to her rosy cheeks.

“I love you,” I want to tell her,

But I know it’d only hurt worse,

So we sit there in silence.

“Alexis?”

The silence becoming too painful.

She looks up. “Hmmm?”

I look into those hazel eyes.

“I promise this won’t be the end.”

Freedom in the Light

The sunlight creeps over the horizon,
All the days of pain are finally done,
I start to feel released from the darkness,
I start to feel freedom from the distress.

I ascend from valley to mountaintop,
When I see the beauty, I start to sob,
Not for the light I thought I'd never see,
But for the beauty strewn out before me.

When I look around me; oh, what a view!
Hundreds of birds filling the skies, so blue,
And each mountain peak clothed in blinding white,
And prairies below, gold with morning's light.

I may have been consumed by night's dark veil,
But I know the light will always prevail.

Running Through the Black

The darkness encroaches from all around,
The evil surrounding me is torture,
The light I once saw's nowhere to be found,
The good I once felt has since been murdered.

For every sun I see, I'm more alone,
And every moon, I find I'm more depressed,
When everyone's asleep, I'll flee from home,
For when I'm at home, I'm too stressed to rest.

I'll run through the dark streets and black alleys,
Evading searching eyes in the deep night,
I watch as each shadow slowly dallies,
And silhouettes made from the light behind.

I can't stop feeling lonely; I'm a mess,
Happiness is gone; I'm drowned in darkness.

Love is Stubborn

Those affectionate feelings have returned,

But this time, they seem like they want to stay,

This time, the feelings aren't shared; I'm concerned

That this time, they will not just go away.

Last time they came, things were so different:

We'd basically just met, almost strangers,

But this time they come around, we're best friends,

This time around, things could get much stranger.

These emotions try to make my eyes tear,

They spin me in circles, getting dizzy,

The words I heard last year ring in my ear:

"Maybe later, but right now, I'm busy."

I thought this attraction had, at last, past.

Now it's telling me, "Hold on. Not so fast."

It's All Over

I have destroyed everything, I’m sorry,

All that I can do is cause us to fight,

Our relationship’s gone, dead, and buried,

I’m sorry I can’t do anything right.

I remember the times when we would dance,

I remember when love was in your eye,

I know now I don’t get another chance,

I know now that all joyous things must die.

The loving times we shared just came and went,

I told you that all I can be is cruel,

But I let myself think it wouldn’t end,

Why did I think it would last? I’m a fool!

I find myself living all my worst fears,

No one can help; I’m drowning in my tears.

Look Again

You feel alone, you feel like you're unloved,
You don't sense hope, you lack that happiness,
You love the seclusion of your cold loft,
You feel the darkness of life is endless.

What are you feeling when you lack a friend?
How do you think you can get rid of hurt,
After all, every life comes to an end,
Every life, hid under heaps of warm dirt.

But what if you could have a second chance?
What if there is a chance you never knew?
A sliver of hope, missed by your first glance,
A friendly voice, it's calling out for you.

"Oh love. My love. Why won't you run to me?!
"Come fall into my arms; I'll set you free!"

Later?

She knows I love her, that will never change,
How much I care about her, it's crazy,
Sadly, I guess we're too far out of range,
Why does she have to be so dang busy?!

As I fall asleep, I think about her,
A majestic creature I've never seen,
When she fills my mind, my heart starts to stir,
If we'd tried, we could have been a good team.

But what if later in life she's open?
What if, down the road, she'll have time to love?
What if I run the race and win again?
What if times are temporarily rough?

I will be sure to keep her in my heart,
In case this relationship will restart.

Whom Shall We Boast In?

We think we're foolish, God says that is good,
He says the foolish are to shame witty;
We think we're weak, we're beaten in the hood,
God says He'll use us to shame the mighty.

God says he chose the lowly of this world,
He says he chose us, we're the detested,
We know humility, it must be heard,
We're to nullify the great commended.

Why are we chosen to do all of this?
Why the invisible of this planet?
It is because of his great holiness,
Because of the new life we've been granted.

What, then, should all the men start to boast in?
God says, "Let he who boasts boast in Him."

Don't Let High School Be The End

That time of year has come around again,

That time when everyone feels bittersweet,
That time when we must say bye to a friend,
That time...what cruel person turned up the heat?!

The seniors are going off to college,
All the rest start taking their darn finals,
The stress pushes everyone to the edge,
Time to listen to those soothing vinyls.

I think the most tragic part of it all,
Apart from our role models leaving us:
After high school, we let the friendships fall,
They disintegrate without half a fuss.

The friendships made in high school are clay,
If they are not handled with care, they break.

Just One More Night, Just One More Day

At what point did “friendship” cease to exist,
And “love” became what is filling the air?
We’re becoming more than friends, let’s face it,
Let’s be honest with ourselves, let’s be fair.

I can’t believe that you could be this kind,
I would thank you, but I can’t say it right,
I’d know it sounded better in my mind,
I guess I’ll sleep on it, just one more night…

You have no idea how strongly I feel,
When I’m around you, my pulse starts to rise,
Please know that my heart’s my Achilles heel,
I ask you not to become my demise.

“Each time I see you, I sing like a jay…”
No, that’s not right. Give me just one more day.